I know she said it's alright

What gives people the ablity to change plans without feeling bad?
I don't understand them sometimes.
People in general I don't understand.
They're really hard to understand.
I don't understand why I think the thoughts that I think.
I really don't.
I'm just weird like that. :P

Well.
Decisions are so hard to make.
I hate making them.
They suck.
Really, they do!

Talking with people make things feel better.
For some reason expressing cares and concerns with other people help a person grow.
Thats....grrrrrrrreat!

but you can make it up next time...

Where have all the flowers gone...

I do not understand a lot of people sometimes.
I'm sure they don't understand me a lot of the time either.
But...most of the time I like to play dumb.
I know what's going on.
I just don't want to make it awkward.
FOR YOU!
hahaha

Well...I have the day off.
I'm thinking I should rest some more.
I woke up at 11:30.
Hey, but that's after sleeping at 4.
I woke up at 6:30 for no reason at all.
I thought it was so late.

I need to do laundry.
I think I mentioned it before, but I will do so again because of my affection towards cleaning my clothes.
I love doing laundry.
Unlike a lot of the other things that I do it makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something.
Dry dirty clothes go in.
Wet clean clothes come out.
Then into the dryer they go for a little bit of loving.
Lovely!

I'm recently discovered that I have ocd (minor case).
Well, I'm not so sure about other things, but when it comes to work.
Yes.
Everything and I mean everythin has to be in the same order.
I can't stand loose papers ANYWHERE.
Yup another look into the life of Johny.

...gone to young girls everywhere

To be or....

Rather the question should be as follows...
So, I'm on my lunch break right now.
I should be eating lunch, but I'm not hungry.
I think I will be okay with a bagel.
Bagels are so good.
But once in awhile I feel like I'm getting cheated out of bread.
I mean...COME ON PEOPLE...there is a hole....
Why in the world would someone think of such a thing?
Donuts are the same thing.
Why?
Is it to save money or is it to withhold from the population that little hole of holesome goodness...
Ponder with me for a moment. Will ya?

I like orange juice.
It's so good.
My breakfast every morning I wake up in the morning consists of two things.
One being the freaken bagel that is good, but it has a hole in it so I feel like I'm getting cheated.
And orange juice which has no flaw with it whatsoever...well...except for that fact that it is a little pricey.
You pay for what you get.

On why I do not care as much as I should and as much as other people.
No I do not want to hear about crying kids in Eastern Europe or
the AIDS epidemic ravaging Africa. (sorry Grace and Kristine and every other person that does care)
Why?
Because to be brutally honest (very brutal) I'm not going to do anything about it.
I could.
I should.
I'm not going to.
It makes me sad when I hear about it and for a split second makes me think about wanting to think about it.
Then like Kaiser Soze it's gone...vanished into thin air.
Why not thick air you ask...
Well, thick air would be referring to fog and it is very easy to vanish into fog.
Hence the term "thin air."
So, in conclusion I'm really hopeful that I will one day be able to vanish into thin air.

...heck I don't care.

I had a really cool title....

So.
I have this really cool idea for a new thing.
What if instead of being a jerk about things we were nice?
Hah.
The biggest jerk is saying this....

Oh yeah..Daniel since I know you read this..(stalker) remind me to give you something.
I found something in the newspaper that reminded me of you.
Yes, I am a creepy human.

I need to get used to this blog thing.
I think that maybe I should have been a little more patient.
With life and with everything else.
I get real antsy and just do things.
Consequences suck!
Unless they're cool...

...but I forgot what it was.

Only if...

Only if...
What if...
Where would I be...
Shoulda...
Woulda...
Coulda...
I wish I hadn't...

There are times where life seems so boring.
Is it because I am boring.
Or rather...is it because I don't have enough boredom in my life.

Study hard, play hard is the motto that my dad always tried to drill into me.
Let there be no guilt for playing hard.
The satisfaction that comes from working hard is so refreshing.

I've noticed I'm not one to mourn.
Is it just because whatever happened hasn't hit me yet or worse...
Is it because I'm just an apathetic being?
Sometimes I feel like I don't care.
I don't feel bad for not caring either.

Life is made for love, laughter, song and dance, jumping, running,
sharing, crying, joy and pain, gifts, giving.....living.