So...

Music I heard with you

Music I heard with you was more than music,
And bread I broke with you was more than bread;
Now that I am without you, all is desolate;
All that was once so beautiful is dead.

Your hands once touched this tables and this silver,
And I have seen your fingers hold this glass.
These things do not remember you, beloved, --
And yet your touch upon them will not pass.

For it was in my heart you moved among them,
And blessed them with your hands and with your eyes;
And in my heart they will remember always, --
they knew you once, O beautiful and wise.

- Conrad Aiken

Hmm...maybe I should have named my dog Conrad.
That would have been an alright name.
Man...This guy was really lamenting about a lost love.
I don't know if I would ever be this sad.
But ya never know until ya try...right?

Hmm...actually it might have been about his parents?
His dad did kill his mom and then committed suicide.
I would be pretty sad.
I think I would be more than pretty.
More like beautifully gorgeous.

Cool.

Where to go from here?

Today was another good day.
I have been in a constant state of happiness.
Maybe because of the anticipation of me getting a dog.
Oh so exciting.

I bought a book yesterday.
The Oxford Book of American Poetry.
I'm really excited about reading it.
I wish it comes soon.
Actually its coming on Saturday.
Soon enough.

Who am I?
A boy without a clue.

No where, but up.

Update.

Pretty funny a memory came to me right now when I wrote update.
I was thinking about long time ago when I used xanga and I wrote downdate.
Doojin kept on saying that to me for a couple of weeks and would bring it up here and there.
Just to remind me of my cleverness. ;)

My life has been amazing, truly amazing.
Conference was absolutely what I needed.
It was a time of repentance and renewal.
Amazing.

Sunsets are beautiful.
They remind me of reflection.
Not like a mirror, but just to think about the day.
They also to remind me to let go.
When a sunsets what we see is actually a delay.
The sun is already set, but because of the distance in between the
earth and the sun there is a slight delay.
Interesting

Sunrises are beautiful too.
Not quite as breathtaking as sunsets, but they require more discipline.
More discipline to the majority of people.
It's nice to see the sunrise and the sunset on the same day.
I think I would like to see the sunrise on the east coast and on that same
day see the sunset on the west coast.
But that would be really expensive.

Well.

How can such a thing shine its light on me...

Life has totally been crazy.
Between me trying to do my thing and catching up with people.
It has been insane.
It is crazy how summer makes life busier.
But busier with things that I want to do.

Every time I think about the future...my mind just races.
I can't figure out what I really want to.
I know what I want to do, but it doesn't give me the feeling.
The feeling of...wow..that's what I'm going to do and I'm going to love it.

I'm back.
It feels good to be back.
Good food with good people equals good times.

and make everything beautiful again.