A New Beginning.

So, if you didn't already know.
I started school along with thousands of other people yesterday (Sept. 25).
I'm so tired.
Waking up at 7 is pretty draining.
The thing is I'm not complaining about my situation.
It's more that I'm complaining about my stupidity.
I hate it when I'm stupid.
Man, IT'S STUPID!!!! |:

Okay, I'm going to become a hermit, hopefully.
Only going out when I need not, unlikely.
Not that it is going to happen, but it would be nice if it could.
So, I could get some studying done.

I like my new guitar.
It's so nice sounding, I think...

Well then
Until next time,

-Johny (:

A New Beginning.

Re-living.

Hey.
It has been a little while...hasn't it?
Well, to give you a quick update on the happenings of my life since I last wrote:
It has been summer for some time now and I have been enjoying it, but I really
can't wait to get back to the daily grind of school.
Sometimes I get the feeling that once I get to it I might regret it and miss summer,
but for right now I can't wait to get back to it.

I've been searching, halfheartedly, for a job.
Can't really complain about not finding one yet when my effort isn't really there.
With school starting soon and all I think that I'm going to begin searching
after I get in the school groove and really get a grasp of going back to UCI.

Sometimes I get the feeling that I should be more open and foward with my feeling
and just everything in general.
But I think that in those situations that I've chosen to bite my tongue and not say
anything I think its worked out pretty well.
Because...when I look back and analyze those moments that I did do that in my life
I have to say that the outcomes weren't bad at all.
Maybe almost good, but surely not bad.

I should get back to reading the books that said that I was going to read.
I get in a reading mode for about 2 weeks and then I stop.
I don't think it is a lack of discipline because I like to read.
And discipline is not really needed for something that I enjoy to do.
I think its more that I don't like to be static in place for too long.
I get a little fidgety.

This summer has been an absolute enjoyable waste of time.
Thanks.

-Johny (:

I don't get it.

I never understood it when people say, "Forgive, but don't forget."
I understand it to a point, but what does it really mean.
I guess the only forgiving that I can think of is Godly forgiveness.
Where it is "as far as the East is from the West."
Forgiveness is the opportunity, in essence, to get hurt by the same thing over and over again.
A burden that theoretically every Christian should bear...over and over again.

I need to forgive and forget.
Forgive because in the Bible I am told to.
Forget so I can truly forgive.

"Lord let me hurt, so I can love those who hurt."

-Johny (: