27 April 2009
I'm in a funk.
I don't know what's wrong and why I'm in a funk, but I do know that I'm in one.
I haven't been thinking about ways of getting out it because I'm weird and sometimes I like being in this place. For one odd reason or another I'm totally digging this feeling right now. It could have to do with certain situations that I've went through or am going through, but it doesn't have to be. We've got the funk.
Right now, I'm thinking about my future. It pops up once in awhile and now is one of those times. I'm not much into living a lavish lifestyle. I just don't need it. Sometimes it'd be nice to have one, but its only out of a desire for comfortable living that I would want that, but I would be lying to myself if I didn't say that it wasn't there. I've always lived in comfort. I don't think I've had to worry about money once in my life and I thank God for that everyday, but that does not mean that I couldn't live in a place where it would be "harder." Comfort and joy and all these good things are found in God.
I was talking to a friend and she was saying that she doesn't want her identity to be in any other. Which got me thinking..Where is my identity found in. Where do I go to find who I am. I would love to say, "I find my identity in Christ alone. He is my everything," but I can't get myself to say such a thing. I've been wrestling with this for a few months and now I'm in a bind.
I need to figure out some things in my head.
I need to see where I fit.
I need to get a hold of my life.
and then we will see.
-Johny (:
I don't know what's wrong and why I'm in a funk, but I do know that I'm in one.
I haven't been thinking about ways of getting out it because I'm weird and sometimes I like being in this place. For one odd reason or another I'm totally digging this feeling right now. It could have to do with certain situations that I've went through or am going through, but it doesn't have to be. We've got the funk.
Right now, I'm thinking about my future. It pops up once in awhile and now is one of those times. I'm not much into living a lavish lifestyle. I just don't need it. Sometimes it'd be nice to have one, but its only out of a desire for comfortable living that I would want that, but I would be lying to myself if I didn't say that it wasn't there. I've always lived in comfort. I don't think I've had to worry about money once in my life and I thank God for that everyday, but that does not mean that I couldn't live in a place where it would be "harder." Comfort and joy and all these good things are found in God.
I was talking to a friend and she was saying that she doesn't want her identity to be in any other. Which got me thinking..Where is my identity found in. Where do I go to find who I am. I would love to say, "I find my identity in Christ alone. He is my everything," but I can't get myself to say such a thing. I've been wrestling with this for a few months and now I'm in a bind.
I need to figure out some things in my head.
I need to see where I fit.
I need to get a hold of my life.
and then we will see.
-Johny (:
posted by Johny at 9:57 AM
2 Comments:
Your blogs are always so thoughtful, it gets me thinking. Haha.
Well, this comment's going to be short because I have to go soon.
I'll just pray to God that you may find your "identity" in Him and that you'll continue to live finding joy in God. That's all I have to say :)
Thanks Johny for being such a great advice-giver. See you soon!
i totally understand what you mean when you mention identity...it doesn't get any easier in grad school sadly. but i think the convictions are stronger when you're out of orange county :)
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