21 April 2009
I am not fasting anymore.
My parents were in favor of me not fasting.
The weather was prohibiting my ability to perform necessary tasks.
I wasn't doing what I intended to do while fasting...as much as I wanted to.
Those are stupid, weak, cop-out excuses.
I was lying in bed last night and I just felt this overwhelming sense of guilt because I ended my fast early and I couldn't fall asleep because of it. I still feel it right now, but I think that I am okay with it. I need to stay in this place for awhile. I didn't go to school today because on my way I just couldn't get it into my head that I was going to school. I just couldn't get myself to get on the freeway. I took a turned around and now I'm at home. Good thing. God, through a pastor on the radio, had something to tell me and He wanted me to listen. It is about Jesus' ascension and what He is doing presently, at this very moment.
He's praying for me....
My parents were in favor of me not fasting.
The weather was prohibiting my ability to perform necessary tasks.
I wasn't doing what I intended to do while fasting...as much as I wanted to.
Those are stupid, weak, cop-out excuses.
I was lying in bed last night and I just felt this overwhelming sense of guilt because I ended my fast early and I couldn't fall asleep because of it. I still feel it right now, but I think that I am okay with it. I need to stay in this place for awhile. I didn't go to school today because on my way I just couldn't get it into my head that I was going to school. I just couldn't get myself to get on the freeway. I took a turned around and now I'm at home. Good thing. God, through a pastor on the radio, had something to tell me and He wanted me to listen. It is about Jesus' ascension and what He is doing presently, at this very moment.
He's praying for me....
posted by Johny at 9:41 AM
1 Comments:
Hello hello :)
I know it may have been hard to end your fast early, but I don't see why you have to feel so guilty. God is still proud of you no matter what! (Wow, I sound like an elementary Bible Study teacher. haha)
Well, anyway, the last two lines of your blog gave me goosebumps. I don't know why, but it just did. I think we're so blessed because our love for God is reciprocal. He probably loves us more than we love him though right?
Today's talk was very useful. I shall think about your advice. lol
I hope you have a great week! :D
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